This Unforgettable Feeling

It was started when the July came. I wrote my July resolution, and one of the resolutions is "I will never leave solat taraweh and I wanna do taraweh in Istiqlal - minimal once for a whole Ramadhan dooong". And I met a friend - a new friend exactly who has been coming into my life. ^^ I asked him for taking me to the Istiqlal, while we were talkin about "ice age" then, yaah.. he said yes! Thank you, Dear.

1st day on Ramadhan, yah.. I did tarawih in my room alone. I chosen for being lonely, it wasnt bcos I dislike for going to masjid, I just.. hm.. I wanted to be closer to Allah. And I thought, if I did tarawih in Masjid komplek, I would never get the "relationship" bcos there would be many kids. Good choice. The 1st night, I asked Allah for forgiving me. I just... it little bit hard to say but.. I knew that I've done many wrong things, that may be made Allah dissapointed or angry on me. 

this sujud couldnt replace all happiness that Allah gave, tp aku bertobat,ya Allah.

In 2010, when I truly mad at Allah who already take my someone, 'till the end of 2010 - 2011 I put on my hijab. And for everythin that I was doin for a year, while I was changing my self. 

Every piece of mistakes that I made, came randomly. Those were why I cried for every solat that I was doin. 

I just felt I'm so tinny, and priceless in front of Allah.

Day by day, my planning for doin tarawih in Istiqlal stronger and more complete. That was why I was looking for many reasons in order that I could go to Jakarta as soon as possible. Why it must be Istiqlal btw?  *may be u're asking to ur heart ya...hehhee* bcos I just felt in home when I was in Istiqlal about three years ago. 

Then, I came to Jakarta, ask him for accompanying me to the Istiqlal. Alhamdulillah.. he wanted to. 

Ya Allah, I do really have nothing! I'm much more tinny than Yours!

This breath is Yours. 

These feet which are stepping your "house" is also Yours.

These eyes, these hands, and everythin on me is all Yours.

And he also was Yours.

Then, why I might be so angry when You took what You have, Ya Allah?

Rasa syukur itu will never be forgotten. My friend said that, if we try to remember somethin by brain, it's not impossible we'll forget it after a year. But if we try to remember somethin by heart, it wont never be deleted. ^^ - he must be forget that he said this surely. :D

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah ^^

Now, the end of Ramadhan is coming. Why's Ramadhan so short? If Allah gave me a chance for asking somethin (beside be accepted in B*I ERP), I'm going to ask for extension Ramadhan. Bcos I felt that I dont have much time for closing to Allah. Besides that, I'm feeling so failed, bcos I didnt ask my family for doing the same thing as I did - taraweh. 

The end of this Ramadhan, ya Allah...
Alhamdulillah.. hamba bersyukur for every each things which will never be changed or changing.
Forgive me, ya Allah. Forgive me for every each mistakes which I've done, ya Allah.
Give me more chances for changing the worst to be the best, ya Allah. 
Give me more times for replacing the disappointed feeling to be proud for my parents, ya Allah.
Give us a chance for facing the next Ramadhan up lagi, ya Allah.
And the last thing that I wanna ask ya Allah, give him any successes as he wants
bcos he already brought me to your beautiful house and gave me the unforgettable feeling for this Ramadhan.
Amiiin..