God, three months ago, U gave me a feeling which I gave to someone whose name is .. You knew it surely. And it has gone right now, I was deleting it God. I can open my eyes, smile and heart anymore. The feeling which I was keeping for him for about 1,5 month was nothing. And I am ikhlas right now. I let him go with other girl whose name is -You know it so well.
God, before 4,5 months ago, I didn't let someone get into my heart. Because I still love him whom I met seven years ago, OK, may be it is not really about, how much I loved him because in the reality I didn't love him so, but sometimes, I missed him. And for tonight also.
God, After You took him, I closed my heart, my eyes, and everythin' which has relation with "heart" 'till I met someone whom I have loved three months ago. And after he - Who I met three months ago, hurt my heart, I choiced to close everything. Try to think in another way. "Gak boleh jatuh cinta sampai bener-bener mapan dan siap nikah". But, It was deleted by my twin's statement "Na, gak boleh gitu, Ni ada kisah tentang seorang cewek yang gak nikah-nikah karena mikirin karir terus" . Ok, and I dont wanna be that woman. Then, I choosed to open my heart slowly, GOD, I MET HIM. You made it so beautifull. His voice when he called me at the 1st time. And his statement on that meeting when the 1st meeting we met. And everythin' all about him is so beautifull.
God, did you send him for treating my heart? If You did, make it possible God. Please. But if you did not send him for me, make me sincere to let him go as soon as possible. ^^
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