Well, this conversation was started when I read his text on whatsapp about 'what he was doin'. Then I asked him, exactly what he's gonna be someday? And he answered that he wanted to have a production house. Then,
he asked me the same question but I couldnt answer it, not because I dont have any dreams,
but.. I just.. was confused suddenly.
Well 1st, I am a structur girl, everythin must be structured as I want, after that I'll do those by my own way. But, sometimes, I just could be so confused by which one of my to do lists must be done first. Kebayang gak sih, dari bangun tidur, when my eyes open I just think about "Ok, what's the first thing that I suppose to do? And.. what the second one, and so on" ya.. gitulah.. dari mengamati dulu ada apa aja di kamar, until I imagine what will be my last thing that I'll being done. For example nih: ada piring ditumpukan lemari buku di kamar, then.. my brain will be automatically doing a process. Dimana, sebelum ke dapur untuk cuci piringnya, I've to go to my cupboard first, ambil sunlight, spon, etc. Trus abis itu masukin baju kotor ke ember dan bla... bla... bla.. the purpose of kinda things that I've done is, everythin must be planned in order that I dont wasted my time.
2nd, I'mthe cleanest girl in the dorm - that what @helloirviene said surely. Gak tau kenapa, aku seneng aja beres2 for making everythin clean. I love cleaning the dorms kitche, washing my tshirts, and doing a kinda thing like cleaning somethin, include: doin heart cleaning. hehe. Tujuh hari dalam seminggu, ketika gak ada jadwal kuliah, one of those days must be my cleaning day. The day when 8 am 'till the end of the day, I've to clean all of my stuffs include my room. Pokoknya, sampe sarang kutu semut pun harus dibersihin. Di lantai kamar aja, sampe gak boleh ada sedikit kotoran tersisa, even itu cuma remeh bekas makan kutunya semut, tetep gak boleh ada *lagi suka banget sama kutu semut* :P
But u know what, guys? sometimes, I just feel confused by which one of my to do lists that I must do first. Kebayang kaaan terlalu terstrukturnya kaya apa.. jqwioejaskvldkaj;fljdaifpaj
2nd, I'mthe cleanest girl in the dorm - that what @helloirviene said surely. Gak tau kenapa, aku seneng aja beres2 for making everythin clean. I love cleaning the dorms kitche, washing my tshirts, and doing a kinda thing like cleaning somethin, include: doin heart cleaning. hehe. Tujuh hari dalam seminggu, ketika gak ada jadwal kuliah, one of those days must be my cleaning day. The day when 8 am 'till the end of the day, I've to clean all of my stuffs include my room. Pokoknya, sampe sarang kutu semut pun harus dibersihin. Di lantai kamar aja, sampe gak boleh ada sedikit kotoran tersisa, even itu cuma remeh bekas makan kutunya semut, tetep gak boleh ada *lagi suka banget sama kutu semut* :P
Tapi kebayang gak sih, kalo bahkan ngeliat remeh secuit pun hidup jadi gak tenang, bakal jadi kaya apa?Sometimes, malah pengen banget hidup di kamar yang kotor, even cuma sehariiii.. aja. minimal nyobainlah rasanya kamar kotor kaya apa.
3rd, I'm a neat girl. which means.. every stuffs that belong to me udah pasti ditempatin di lokasi yang tersusun, rapi, dan...bersih. Semua stuf, aku hafal nyimpennya dimana. Aku sudah terbiasa menaruh sesuatu pada tempatnya. Senang memang hidup serapi itu, jadi tahu meletakkan a dan b dimana, penyakit "lupaan" yang udah akut pun kian hari kian memudar. Gak jarang when my roommate @sellyimanda lost her eyeglasses, I just know where the last place she put it on.
But, it must have a negative side also surely. Sometimes I feel that I dont have enough spaces for placing my stuffs. Dan kalo udah gitu, suka pusing-pusing cendili kaaan.. (dibaca sendiri) mesti ngeletakin X dimana, Z dimana.. Bahkan gak jarang, I made a sketch of all spaces that I have and the lists of stuffs that must be placed utk mempermudah Manajemen Penyimpanan Barang, yang dikenal dengan MPB didunia per-manajemenan *boong boong :P
Because I'm the one who's like those things, I made the structure of my future planning. Such as: nanti dua tahun lagi mau ngapain.. terus, what I wanna be after finishing study, dan.. hal-hal begitulah.
Then I made ONE thing that I wanna reach, which is BE WIFE and MOMMY. Aku selalu bilang sama diriku "I've to be a smart girl in order that I could teach my children someday" dan begitulah..But you know, when @masttio asked me about "Emang kamu mau jadi apa nanti?" I answered what I planned, he said "bukannya itu kewajiban? Vina, ketika seseorang nanya nanti kamu mau jadi apa, maksudnya adalah ketika orang mengingat sesuatu maka ia kan mengingat kamu" After the night, my heart said if "Ia juga ya .. for being mommy and wife, is two things that I'll be someday for sure. Tapi, expert di bidang apa, dan jadi apanya diriku ini, ternyata aku masih belum tau. Apa kira-kira hal yang akan membuat orang ketika melihat, atau membicarakan, atau mendiskusikan satu hal langsung teringat nama Vina ya? But is it important to make people remember me? Tapi.. okelah, sambil cari jawabannya, I'll try my best"
The other night, I just try to list all of my dreams, which are: be a lecturer, or designer and writer, and or entrepreneur. I wrote those on my resolutions book, but u know...hm... I'm still confused what I'm gonna be soon.
2 comments:
Surely it takes time to know what you want to be, but the first time to do is recognizing that you have to be someone or something.
And you've done that.. ^^
thank you yah Kaka ^^
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